Poems by Jaz
[aka. Pamela Banks]
Here’s a partial collection of my poems.
We Poets
2008 Second Place Winner of Blue Mountain Arts Eleventh Biannual poetry contest
'Cause that's what poets do
We look beyond what's obvious
pulled into the spaces
between the lines
We look for the corners
and the shadows
drawn to trash-treasures
and debilitating views
We weave in wonder with waste
We stand in front of the questions
and chance a head-on collision
with the answers
we
expose
incinerate
crash
and create
We're truth wearers
We scream, cry, whisper, and sing
the world's thinking
The words turn us inside out
throw us off cliffs
and challenge us some more
they hold us responsible
for telling their stories
for displaying their scars
for shedding their layers
for holding them in the night
and promising daylight
and they — the words
deliver on miracles
The words are mountains inside valleys
illuminating abysses
and sometimes shaking
hands with them
Our words slay dragons
of misconceptions
pull the blinders off perception
and cut right through the grain
Yeah
our words stroll in Paris
naked and unapologetic
effective and unaffected
'cause that's what our words do
Poets welcome the edges
and the unkept
we eat the heels of bread
and pocket eggshells
We caress the discarded
and hold mirrors up to humanity
and we'd do best to keep
that mirror on us
for a gentle continuum
of self-eval
Healthiness
Make sure pride
doesn't tarnish the craft
and heads stay small
We are student
as well as teacher
we look on the words
with amazement also
We're healed by digest
our own food
feeds us too
At times vulnerable
other times anonymous
too often synonymous
with only happiness
anger or sadness
we
are
so
much
more
We're a newborn's first breath
and giggling high-school sweethearts
We're seducing suns
and pink beaches
We are stage fright
and therapy couch-dwellers
We're apples and peanut butter sandwiches
College kids choking on cigarettes
We're gusts of wind that escaped
through the cracks of windows
We're leaky faucets that refuse to get fixed
and 9 to 5'ers without deodorant
We are sidewalks and stars
Solomon and The Three Stooges
We're Nyquil at dusk
but wellness at dawn
We're Tastykakes
lemons
and Sourpatches
We're not always
coming from honest places
for sometimes we
covet each others' light
and try to wear
another's skin
instead of embracing our own
We've got some growing to do
We poets pray for
courage
strength
and even acceptance
Sometimes we're on pause
sometimes just on empty
and we don't always
have a poem for you
embrace us
we need hugs too
We'll keep on emptying
ourselves out
refilling
risking and falling
slipping and dancing
soaring
laughing
living
and
writing
For that's what we poets do.
Copyright2005byJaz
TrAuMa
(inspired by Angie Greco)
Starved
for attention-
positive or negative
they hate
the skin
they’re in
so callous
because of
their situations
easier for them to
push me away
because of home
easier for them to
envy
than to compliment
easier for them to
slice the knife both ways
so they won’t be the only one wounded
easier to rage-
it’s better than being background noise
easier to act like drywall
To expose the heart is certain death
They
arrive
in
bits
and
pieces
trynna build
on the bricks thrown at them
“It ain’t personal”
Angie says
She’s a Salve
to where their
Word-daggers dig into me
Why do teachers do it?
Because
They Are Worth The Investment
Worth
Wholeness
Worth
Celebration
Worth
Intercessions
Worth
Agape love
Worth
Safe spaces
Worth the breaking of strongholds
And the healing of generations
They are worth the one that God sees…and…saves.
Copyright2023byJaz
To Snatch Black Gold from Sunlight
2020 Community Finalist in the Temple University-sponsored Short Fiction/Poetry contest by French publishing house Short Edition.
Racism
You are
A breathing wound imprinted upon God's creation
Carved into the psyche of my ancestors
You are a brandished whip
Cross-stitched on the backs
Of my
Brothers
Children
Sisters
Racism
You are
The tombs which boldly traversed great oceans
To trade black blood for your profit, entertainment & privilege
Racism
You are an
Institutional
Systemic
Oppressive
Global
Pandemic
That rolls over & over into every century
To show your diseased face
Like the bloated body & bulged eyes
Of Emmett Till
Racism
You are a
Thief
of
Pulse
and
Purpose.
Of
Laughter
Dignity
and
Healing
Of
Home
Value
and
Humanity
Of
Unity
Of
Free
Of
THE AFRICAN AMERICAN FAMILY TREE.
Racism you are the knee of Amerikkka which stole the breath from
George Floyd and Breonna Taylor
(YEAH...SAY ALL OF THEIR NAMES).
Your wickedness is in high places and low
Racism
It is time.
Way past time to
Break your stronghold
Torch your interruption
And
Face
Your
History
I have
No
Answers
For you
Though...
That's your job.
I will no longer hold up your mirror with instructions on dismantling your poisons
And I will not give you what you can go (re)searching for.
No
I am spirit-weary and soul-tired of the reruns on the endless hashtags of my existence
Your creators must
Do. The. Work. Now.
Copyright2020byJaz
SPEAK!
Swallowing myself
In an endless
Tangle & tumble
Of touch and torque
Torrid.
Twisted.
I eat my tongue
while they feast on me
But I can’t bear to let it go unspoken
The body
Becomes the poetry.
Copyright2020byJaz
MINISTRY
LORD,
Somebody needs
Your WORD
wrapped around them
Your scriptures
Inscribed
on their cheek
to wipe out
the imprint of abuse
Your Psalms
in their
eyelids
Someone needs
The presence of your peonies
The Balm of Your aroma
Someone needs
The Great I AM…
And so, I write.
Copyright2023byJaz
I HEAR YOUR MOANING, PHILLY
Our hearts are a blaze
With the way evil breaks teeth
Scalps and scab’s kids’ knees
Children on a bus
Deserve providence and light
And pancakes at dawn
And so I lament
And ask the Holy Godhead
To destroy Strongholds.
Copyright2024byJaz
JAZ
Jaz is a jovial being rising early as the sun’s first customer
Amiable and accomplished with enough exuberance for all
Zealously putting the day to bed, while zestfully looking towards the promise of another sunrise
Copyright2024byJaz
P.O.E.T.R.Y.
Prolific, paramount, palatable, panoramic, peculiar
Obscure, offbeat, and observable
Ebullient, earthy, enigmatic and edible
Thrifty, tender, transient and teachable and tactile and tangible and temperamental!
Rambunctious, reliable, radiant and ravishing
Yearning, yearning, yearning.
Copyright2024byJaz
Please Don’t Drop The Children
Always
once more
and again
will I try
They deserve
someone not giving up on them
Scratching the face of help
Testing...against
the spirit of rejection
Bucking
against wounds
where familial word-swords landed...
and bruised
They bite and bully one another…
but
their light bends behind the Cumulus
We’re all
for the next generation.
pushing boulders
Copyright2023byJaz
FREEMAN
My Great Uncle has tales tall and wide as El Árbol del Tule.
I can’t tell where the blur ends and begins.
Every person walking down the street has been cast in his story
“Oh, I know her!
She dated my cousin, then skipped town for parts unknown, before emerging to get hitched with my brother’s brother at the Justice of the Peace. Shuuucks…ended up being my dentist!”
“Oh, I know him!
Met him in Mississippi. We were in the war together. Ran for our lives together
Wrestled alligators together. Went shopping for women, together”
The way he spins his words…Everyone feels and sounds famous to me!
Everydaypeople is his fodder
I don’t judge the shoes I may one day walk in
I just sit at his feet unraveling poetry
from the navel of his folklore.
Copyright2022byJaz
What Do The Crows Know?
Transient travelers
Screaming sojourners
house to lawn
line to pole
Bush to lake to concrete
Conversating
At the intersections of flight
Sleek wingspans in all their glory
Oh what do the crows know?
I witness
The ease and efficacy
Of their intricate choreography
Obstreperous concerts blundering on my ears
I hear some ant way below in her car bellow out,
“Oh, would you SHUT UPPPPP!”
While I long to caress thee Onyx
And cull sky secrets
From their caws.
Copyright2024 by Jaz
ENOUGH
It’s
Time
Now
To
Outrun
Your shadows
And
Eat
The
Morning
Sun.
You are enough.
Enough of waning and wading in the shallows
Enough
You are enough.
Enough of living outside in-
The cheerleader is internal…they’ve always been there
Enough
You are enough.
Enough existing
Enough bowing low
and breaking in the bend
YOU ARE ENOUGH
Even if your family didn’t tell you
YOU ARE ENOUGH
Even if the words of humans shrunk you
YOU ARE ENOUGH!
Copyright2021byJaz
A GAPING EYE
This house-
Where the walls are weeping
The rocker’s
eating its own arms
and the colonial rugs
refuse to lay flat
They curl with corners towards heaven
in defiance
and in
earnest
of praying us back home.
Copyright2023byJaz
A Song For Kalief
Climb every mountain
Ford every stream
The boots tasted like old, cracked earth inside his mouth
Choking on
His denials of freedom
The aging of his dreams
Follow every rainbow…
Well, he followed every rainbow
And he followed every rule
But only nightmares found Kalief Browder
Inside
The
Mouth
Of
America’s
Noose.
Till you find your dreams
Oh, you didn’t know?
America eats its young
And swallows them whole.
(italics are lyrics from the interpolation of the song “Climb Ev’ry Mountain” by Oscar Hammerstein II)
Copyright2023byJaz
Spring 2022 Residency
Three months ago
Wind-cracked earth
took my face
The lava laden fissures swallowed my pen
I looked no more for ink
to consume the metaphors of morning
I lived outside of my poetry
where breathing hurt
and my heart could no longer trust a good-bye
Where were my words?
Didn’t I promise myself
that as an artist I would use it all?
The dust, the deafness, the bones, the dysfunctions
Why couldn’t I construct meaning
from the in-between?
Why didn’t the Sonnets save me!
Why didn’t I bend my ear a little closer to the page?
When did I stop listening to the white spaces?
Oh, silly poet!
How did I forget that
birth is in the dark spaces of the womb?
And the black of a butterfly’s wing
is needed as much as the light of it?
See I was becoming
the poetry that you now hear
So I’m thankful for the wilderness
And for now being on the other side of the wind.
Copyright2022byJaz
Betwixt Evening’s 8 and 9
As the last bit
of daylight slips
from the sun’s grip
The moon steps forth
extending fingertips
to
cut
and
paste
herself
into
the
night
sky.
Copyright2006 by Jaz
Belt of Truth. Breastplate of Righteousness. Shoes of Peace. Shield of Faith. Helmet of Salvation. Sword of The Spirit. Lance of Prayer & Supplication (Spiritual Warfare)
Even with shattered knees
Fight
Even with bowed and broken head
Fight
Even with the stain of memories
Fight
Even with the soul bloated, tipsy from pain
Fight
Even with the heart caved in
Fight
Even with the lie of no light on the horizon
Fight
Even with the guardians of your upbringing dropping you
Fight
Even with the maiming of your mental health
Fight
Even with shackles having tantrums
Fight
Take yourself off the enemy’s auction block
And
Fight.
Copyright2023byJaz
A Gift from Lucille (For Lucille Clifton)
The words
lightning
held me fast
to the belly of compression
I burned
right there
in the
spark of
its brevity
Copyright2023byJaz
HILLS BOW FOREVER AT YOUR FEET
Every blade of grass sings to you…
mirrors the colors in your voice
Oceans clap their hands
in white foamy waves
Their smiles skimming the edges of great
reflected off the glimmer of the surface
You smile back
Mountains are the earth’s arms
eternally raised in praise
Waterfalls crash in jubilant excellence
at the creativity of your hands
Creation’s song
bounces off of and resonates between sky and sea
The sun rests in your magnificence
It’s light, reflecting yours
Flowers with their faces lifted to you
shimmering under heavens dew
as the trees stand at everlasting attention
in your presence.
Copyright2004 by Jaz
SONKU 4 SONIA (For Sonia Sanchez)
The Wordsmith
wondrously
crocheting
her bones of poetry
into me
Groaning For A Perfect State
darkness
of
night
coil
round
usurp breath
from tired skin
I summon
my
light
to push
thru
rise up
outta
ash
and
dung
to the
One
whose
arms
hold
me
above
my
broken
places
Copyright2004byJaz